I know its been forever - as always. Feels like I start out way too many entries like that. So things have been crazy. I'm ridiculously busy all the time. Now that I'm actually doing stuff with Vector, the 2 job thing is gettin to me. Well since the last time I wrote, not too much has happened. I did accidently stab myself in the wrist a couple weeks ago. Had to call the ambulance (it was my first time in one of those) and go to hospital (first time there as well). So that was "eventful". But it didn't hurt cause Cutco rocks  It was kinda nasty though.....

Oh and this was weird... while I was there, there was this Mexican guy in the room across the hall. He was a construction worker and apparently stepped on a board, which flipped up and caused him to stab himself in the ear with a rusty nail... Esh!
So anyways, work has been going well depending on which you ask about. The Vet thing is gettin on my nerves. I don't mind it, but I compare everything to Vector and then it all sucks. For instance, I made more $$ on my last demo (which was 2 hours) then I'll make in 2 weeks at my Vet job. How insane is that? I want so bad to quit that job so I can do Vector full-time, but until I pay my mom back, I cant. I owe her $10,000 at the moment. I could pay her back by December if I keep doing demos, but thats not soon enough. I need to have her paid back by October. We are going to a "Rep Development Conference" in Orlando and we are stayin at the Hilton Walt Disney World Resort  That's gonna kick ass! But I wanna go a few days early and stay a couple days later so Brandy and me, and whoever else can go to Disney and Universal while we are there. (Brandy has never been to either) Unfortunately, I can't take a week off from my Vet job or I'll get fired. Sooo not sure how I'm gonna work that out yet. We are also takin a trip to Olean, NY to see the factory in the fall, so that's fun. Also, Shannon and Guthrie are going to the Renaissance Fair in Maryland (apparently they have real jousting), and me and Brandy may go. Or just Brandy, theres no telling lol

So speaking of trips, we went to Richmond, VA for SCII the other weekend. That was awesome, as always! Although Henry didn't show up which pissed me off, I thought he was doing a talk. grr.... I did see Chris though ( I need my CD!!! ) and he kept me up half the night so I was tired the next day LOL ! (don't you fuss at me boy! hehe) Another awesome thing that happened around that time, was I got a couple more promotions so I'm making 45% now. $5,000 away from FSM!! "Half Baby!!!"  For those of you who aren't familiar with the "vector lingo", FSM is Field Sales Manager, its the highest sales promotion you can get and it means you make HALF of everything you sell.... $400 in an hour just for selling a basic set... yeah thats hot (haha Jeff Gamboa cracks me up!)

Everything aside from work is going alright. I don't really have a life outside of work, don't have the time or the energy. The only time I have time to myself is online and night. Of course theres the guys who try to talk to me on MySpace and places like that. I feel like a bitch for not talking back, but I'm not going there again. At least I still have my buddies from before
My Norwegian Translator, Tommy (you never told me what you want for that hehe) and of course: Kristian, thanks so much hun!!! (couldnt have done that w/out you) & Don't worry, when I go to Norway, I won't forget you

Not much else to update on but I got a couple people to notice

Mike: I'm not mad that you didn't take the job, Matt was gonna fire you anyway. I'm mad that you made a complete fool out of yourself and me. I talked you up so much to my managers and then you pull something like that. It makes me look extremely bad. If the job isn't for you, thats fine. But it's completely uncalled for to say outloud in front of an entire training class that "this is stupid". If it is so stupid, why do I make so much more money that you? You could've affected the decision of someone who would've been great. Not to mention you talked down to Brandy, who is a manager and my friend. You told me you had changed, which apparently isn't true. What you did that day was rude, inconsiderate, and disrespectful and I have no desire to associate with people like that.

And on a completely different note:

Shannon: You are much more than a great manager, you are a great friend and a wonderful person. Thank you so much for all your encouragement. That day you hugged me and told me you were proud, made my week! You always make me feel good about myself. And the fact you cared that night in the office when I was sad, meant a lot. You're awesome and deserve the best, thanks so much for everything

Currently Listening Diva By Annie Lennox Walking On Broken Glass see related

You were the sweetest thing that i ever knew
But i don't care for sugar honey if i can't have you
Since you've abandoned me
My whole life has crashed
Won't you pick the pieces up
'cause it feels just like i'm walking on broken glass

Walking on walking on broken glass

The sun's still shining in the big blue sky
But it don't mean nothing to me
Oh let the rain come down
Let the wind blow through me
I'm living in an empty room
With all the windows smashed
And i've got so little left to lose
That it feels just like i'm walking on broken glass

Walking on walking on broken glass

And if you're trying to cut me down
You know that i might bleed
Cause if you're trying to cut me down
I know that you'll succeed
And if you want to hurt me
There's nothing left to fear
Cause if you want to hurt me
You're doing really well my dear

Now everyone of us was made to suffer
Everyone of us was made to weep
But we've been hurting one another
And now the pain has cut too deep...
So take me from the wreckage
Save me from the blast
Lift me up and take me back
Don't let me keep on walking...
Walking on broken glass

Walking on walking on broken glass

Currently Listening Never Gone By Backstreet Boys Just want you to know see related

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

All the doors are closing I'm tryin' to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped away

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
No I can't fake it, there's no one else

I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

BTW ~ Nancy: I know he's not worth my time. I'm just not a strong enough person to let him go yet.

Theres so much to write and so little time..... Grrrr!!! I have lots to say but the most important, cause I'm very excited about it, was that I made $1,392 this week at Vector. YAY!  My job kicks ass. Dont worry, next time I have more than 5 minutes to write something, I'll preach about all the other great stuff happening with Vector - but thats enough for now. So far, only bad thing this week is that for some god-awful reason I still miss Eivind and it's really beginning to bug me. I can't for the life of me figure out a reason why I should, but I do. Damnit...

Well that's all for now ~ buhbye all! *muah* !

Things are pretty great right now, but just become of Vector of course.  A couple days ago I had my biggest sale yet, CPO $1,459 so I made $444 in an hour and a half. Plus I am just a few bucks short of my 5th promotion with the company, $15,000 which means I'll be in "bonus land" making 40%!!! *Higher Baby!!* Plus I'm setting up a lot more demos so the managers are happy, which is always good. Plus when I call in and talk to Guth now, the convos are much happier haha  So I could talk all night about my job and how great it is, but I'm busy as usual. Gotta make calls and such. I'll try to do a real update later.

So on a side note - I was going through old Xanga entries trying to find some lyrics from like November and I came across this one entry I wrote. It was an excerpt from the book "Get Smart With Your Heart" (it's my Thursday October 8th entry). Well anyways I found a couple parts that reminded me soooo much of Eivind, it was too funny. I'm so glad I'm not the one who has to put up with his shit everyday anymore. I feel badly for Rehana, shes a great girl and deserves much better. He will never change, but oh well, guess it's her choice to put herself through it again. But anyways:

In our attraction to bad boys, we feel we will be the ones who are going to nurture and support them and make up for their history, pain, and unfortunate life experiences. They pull at our heartstrings and we feel their pain. Deep in our hearts, we feel this man is the way he is because no one ever really loved him or cared for him. Love is not a solution for another person’s problems especially when it comes to a man who is a problem partner. By his own volition he needs to make difficult changes indicated by his past and present problems. Nothing you do will change him if he doesn’t want to change!

A problem partner is far from being a benign influence on your life. He will take your energy, money, self-esteem, dignity, freedom, and joy while returning nothing positive! Being with no one is a better choice.

A conman is someone with no moral compass, conscience or heart. He feels no remorse for his behavior. He lives with ease. He rationalizes improper behavior.

            Women hope that their love and care will thaw out a man who is emotionally frozen. You will wait until hell freezes over before you get what you want!

He is emotionally reactive because he seeks only outside stimuli to feel alive. A woman will never find this type of relationship fulfilling; she will feel ever stimulated, emotionally and spiritually, to the point of exhaustion. This kind of man has a demand for intensity that is nearly impossible for any women to keep us with. You will always be the target of his self-destructive acts, frequent arguing, and inability to make and keep long-range plans.

Mood-Swings and Misperceptions:

          It is an emotional energy drain to be involved with a manic man who is futilely trying to avoid his own emptiness. He is incapable of loving you over the long haul and will destroy your self-esteem.

HaHaHa !!! So glad I'm rid of him, what a jackass. Well I hope everyone's doin great ~ I certainly am

"It's not who wins or loses, it's how much we beat you by.... Truuuuuuuee!!!!!" SCII is almost here!!!!